20 April 2024 -- Boise, ID

luckily ive cut out most things in my life that make me doomscroll

It really does kill you.

'fuck the internet' -- NO, this misses the point unfortunately

the Web is really the unhealthy part of the internet tbh.  not the internet
as a whole.  like there are other internet-places not on the web that are far
healthier.  gemini for one

i only say this in this way, making this distinction, because for me
personally things got a lot better when i made a big active effort in my mind
to decouple the idea of the Web and the Internet.  i got stuck in this doomer
rut for a while thinking ''oh the internet is un-saveable, the internet is
doomed, everything sucks, theres no escape from capitalism and the hold it
has on our technology'' which is BULLSHIT by the way, absolute BULLSHIT.

if your brain keeps telling you shit like this bullshit DONT BELIEVE IT. 
dont fucking believe it.  after i started decoupling the idea of the web and
the internet in my head, i started realizing ''hey wait i can still see and
interact with plenty of places online that arent the web, and i feel
healthier i feel happier'' like 

its almost as if its in the interests of the capitalists to make you think
they have all the power of your means of technology, and we gotta remember
we're the ones still building spaces for ourself yaknow

they wanna centralize shit to remove you from your community, make you think
there is no such thing as a community in an online space, just a vapid
senseless void we call ''content'' because it no longer can stand as art

it is just production.  it is just a factory line.  content.  product.  user.
but thats not true and thats not how its gonna stay

gotta jettison yourself from all that bullshit and keep doing things because
you exist, because you are real because you were here because you are free

putting things where you want how you want when you want with who ever you
fucking want because you have that dignity etc

all the chains you feel around you on community, ''oh i cant leave big social
media platform xyz because im gonna lose friends or purpose'' are imagined,
they were placed there by someone other than you

but you still got the keys, you still got a fucking sledgehammer.  hope is a
hammer, my friends

''Hope is a hammer, hope is a force!''

it sure fucking is.  we will outlive them.  all those fucks who wanna beat us
down cause our spirit is not profitable.  all those fucks who wanna put us in
cages cause our lives are sinful

proud of u all btw